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#1. Go Forth and Create 28 1/2" x 21" 10/97 Oil on Watercolor Paper (coated with acrylic medium) |
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Across the top: "Go Forth and Create - You will be Guided" | ||
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This image depicts a woman looking in awe at the beautiful rainbow she created, but doesn’t see the spirit behind her "co-creating" with her, enabling her to create much greater works than if she were working alone. It is the image I received in an automatic drawing, one of the first.
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Around 1995 I was going through a very bad time in my life - difficult marriage, deteriorating health (chronic fatigue syndrome, week-long fevers, increasing food sensitivities, mental trauma from past and present events, poor vision so much that it hurt to even open my eyes often). I had been spending a lot of time in bed, and with nothing better to do, meditating a lot. One day, in great despair, I was sitting up in bed sketching as I did often, and I just asked the question, “Well, what am I supposed to do now? What am I good for? Should I just fling myself off a cliff and be done with it?” And suddenly felt lifted way up, flooded with love, and I saw a group of angels above; my hand started quickly drawing an image – the image was of an angel with his hand stretched out, and many angels behind him – and the very strong message was “There is your gift, you silly!” (Humorously! They have been very humorous). The message was that I was to do my art. Go to the canvas and paint. With healing feelings the images bring. I cried and cried afterwards; it was so beautiful, and I realized I had never really felt true happiness before. It was the start of several years of clairvoyance/clairaudience, even scents, and “conversations with the universe”, and automatic drawings and paintings. I was so lifted up and expanded, with a greater sense of myself and my world and what I am doing here. Go Forth and Create was the next automatic drawing, and it insisted on becoming a painting. This is the first painting in my new direction. It was such a big learning experience. I knew I was to do this image, because it wouldn’t leave me alone. When I finally gave myself up to follow this path, so much magic began to happen. I didn’t know how to start. I was told "you have everything you need to do this now. Just start." It went though many transformations, starting out very small. I didn’t have any canvas, so I used 14"x17" bristol paper. When I first went to draw this image for painting, I found that I kept putting the image towards the top of the page. I couldn’t seem to draw the image centered, and I didn’t know why. I only had "Go Forth and Create" across the top and the image, not the text below. So I just continued on, trying to paint what I had so far. My efforts were very crude and clumsy, so I tried over and over. One day, I got so fed up because I couldn’t get this little image to look decent. I felt that there was something more, something itching to burst through. Finally, one Saturday, I grabbed my big 18"x24" drawing pad, and took some charcoal and made a quick sketch of the image, filling the page, and got a huge burst of energy. It looked great immediately. It wanted to be a big picture! I got very excited. As I was working out the image on this new size, I received another message - all the text that was to go under the image. The information came so fast, I had to write it down furiously. It all made sense now! That’s why the image had to be placed higher up. And it became so much more. As I was happily working away on it, I wondered, "This painting is so much work; who is it for? Am I going to work so hard on this, only to sell it and that is all?" I got an answer immediately - I saw it hanging in many places, many copies, and it was helping many people. I said, "Oh! it’s going to be a poster!" And I heard a voice very clearly say, "You’ll print 2000 to start." So even with my poor eyesight (my eyes were always hurting), I happily worked away on it, using a magnifying glass to do the lettering. I look at it today and marvel at how I ever accomplished it. |